Ever After, could I?

Things came up every time when they were being finished… appeared with different taste, and existed in the bare world by various ways, by many styles...
Hardly could I avoid the fate though I resist…tired visions with wrinkles or not, couldn’t escape from misery lies on... As I prayed through expectation, denial, and the ruin of belief... God didn’t even listen, notice, or perhaps care about … but it didn’t mean I abandon Him…
The fierce dragon from the side of me broke out already; asked for a sacrifice to hand in, and required elimination of humanity… I remembered a flash of my father’s memory, about life, about cause & effect, about to be or not to be, even about the mystery of death or feeling.
I was raised to be strong, to be as smooth as wind, as flexible as water, and as high as mountain, and to be like those weren’t easy, I should throw away my childishness, I should fight for the things I want to achieve, and which was the most difficult, I might not cry… the hardest thing for a crier like me…
Thank God I was given everything use to be had, how couldn’t I unthankful for that? Quite solid family, manageable problems, expectable future, middle rank intelligence, and complementary things as additions.